Head over Heels

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What is your story?

I never knew how dangerous could be to fall in love with you until I crossed that path.

I’m hurt but I want to spend this cold night under your sheets. No one else is invited except you … Do you want to come? You know what’s on my mind, you can read me.

Can you feel how much I want you through my scar? It’s not bleeding anymore; the air of the west coast healed the damage.

Come a little closer, I’m not afraid, or, are you afraid of losing something? Turn me on like you did that night when you made me feel it was just me, just you and me. Do it slowly and tell me what do you want when you touch me right there.

We could have been perfect, even with that irresistible taste to crystal that you have.

A physical connection is easily to accomplish but a mental connection is unique… Can you tell?

Can you feel how my body is calling you? Maybe we were meant for each other but… never mind. I will hide you like a dirty secret under my bed.

Its breathtaking just hearing your name, I can hardly breathe when I feel you near, I feel suffocate when I remember your kisses, and it burns me just to think how you make me feel more woman … I think I have to kiss you again under the sun light to come down to earth.

I had everything I needed until I came in through that door. I knew there was something I still missing when your midnight eyes charmed me.

I want to touch the sky and see how it burns beneath us, I want to see how we can be extraordinary together rather than ordinary apart… I just want to be… I just want my lifetime.

Maybe you are a bad decision that can costs me my life, maybe next time I will leave uninjured, maybe I can’t follow you where you are now, but you were what for so long I was waiting to made me feel “I’m home “.

Grey

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I had to reinvent myself when you left but I still believe even though your lies.

Everybody asks me if there will be a second chance, but you broke the wrong girl.

I wait so long to feel the same adrenaline rush he made me addicted and I let you in but I was a fool and now you left me with an ending that never started but without tears.

The point of a story is to love and be loved, that’s what people say, but I wasted my time showing you how you could be appreciated.

I crash hard against a wall on a stormy night and you weren’t there to protect me.

I lied when I told them I don’t need you but I just don’t want you to break me again.

You said you are ready and I believed, but why you set me free? Your cure was worse than my illness.

You were the reflection of my ego, you were a mix between the cosmic and the orgasmic.

I thought you could protect me but now I understand that the only way of erase this feeling it’s across this lines.

I might be a girl who falls in love easily, but I believed in that truth you hide under your arrogance and I saw in you more of what you let others to see.

I was that girl who stood in front of you and asked you to love her despite her scars.

I will tell you something, thanks, I learned a lesson that led me to rebirth.

After overcoming your hell, not any demon can burn me.

Now I don’t pray at night to see you again, now I pray for you to get what makes you happy.

Today we have memories that if we cross the street, just our eyes will pronounce that hello my lips are no longer know how to express.

My Holy Week

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This year I decided to go to Arizona, specifically Tempe (a city near to Phoenix). I called my trip “spiritual retreat”.

Many people claim to be religious but at the end, we are all sinners, no one is perfect.

I always try to spend my Easter in the most respectful possible way.

A lot of people said “Arizona, Why that desert?”, there were totally wrong. The weather was the first thing that surprised me, it’s delicious, a thousand times better than Florida. It is cool in the mornings, warm on the afternoons (without being stuffy) and at night, deserves just a light sweater.

Of course the sun is quite strong and the body craves industrial quantities of water but, I’m in love with that place.

The houses are brown and sand color; highways are stunning; the sky it is a perfect blue and clear all the time.

I saw a lot of Mexican influence (I liked that tourist places display the information in English and Spanish). The food was delicious (I went to a place called Oregano’s twice, its Italian food and serve a “pizza cookie” that is to die for).

On this trip I relaxed myself and disconnect from the routine (I think sometimes this is a must).

I have friends over there so, I met them. They are from Saudi Arabia.

Spending my Easter among Muslims was kind of interesting, and I think I had never felt so understood and supported in my faith like this time, they respected my believes. One of them told me I was the first Hispanic person he met who was serious about religion.

I think people take their religion on their own way, we all have different ways to bring our faith out.

The purpose of this trip was to connect myself with the energies of the earth, with my own energies, and what better place than the Grand Canyon for this. After driving 4 hours or more, we made it. I was feeling blessed and grateful for been there, “God, thank you for letting me see this, and I feel lucky.”

I sat down on one of the cliffs and I started to think, reflecting and letting go (yes, letting go one more time).

I will share my thoughts at that place:

1. If a person is not afraid of losing me, why I have to be afraid of losing him?

2. If I say “I miss you” is because I really mean it.

3. God, I put myself in your hands.

4. Two words can summarize what I have learned in my life so far and have served me a lot: “keep going”. Because everything happens for a reason and nothing is eternal.

5. Have friends that are not your same age. Meet people who are not from your same social class. Invest some of your time in people who have a different culture than yours, people who speak another language or have another religion. This is how you see the world. This is how you grow as a human being.

One of the lessons from the Dalai Lama was: “Once a year, go someplace where you’ve never been before.”

Thank you Arizona for my spiritual search 2015

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