30 days

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I thought this might not happen, that you will not catch me.

Everything started with a “let’s try” and now ends with a “now, what?”

Your lack of delicacy hurts a little when you speak, I forgive you before you did (without even understand why).

Are you coming back?

You taught me how to sleep tied to your skin and now, you forgot how to teach me to sleep just with the sheets.

Are you asking me if I’m going to miss you? Ask me that in a week, in a few days, in a few hours.

I’ll be fine, I will end up in just a memory and I will be your Winter Tale. I told you, my life is full of “Goodbyes “.

I was bleeding in your silence; you were absent even when you were present.

At the 30th day, I dine alone with just the light of the stove and your food got cold on the table.

It took me 30 days to feel attached, it took 30 days to know the little of us we allowed us to see, and it took 30 days to realized  I have an addiction.

Are you coming back?

I do not know, but you were cleared  when you said “I don’t have time to wait”.

Thanks for the love in my mornings, thanks for the hugs when I was at my worst.

I know who I am, I know where I am going, and I know I just need someone who can tell me “let me love you”.

I bought the dream you sold me, thanks for making things cleared.

I like the way you can read me, you know I do not like words, l just love the lyrics.

Are you coming back?

Thank you for your company and forgive me for not making  you crazy about me, and I apologize for not giving you the honor of being my happy endings .

Too little too late

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Hi … How are you? I heard you’re dying… and now you just remember who Am I?

My hands are stained of you … What does it feels to be on the other side? Your wound is bleeding and seems it is not going to stop, you are about to bleed out … Should I help you? How can I do it for you when you didn’t do it for me?

You shout for a love you couldn’t prove and now, look at you; I got tired of waiting… You went after her, I know, they told me, and now you’re coming asking for forgiveness? I knew this day would come, I knew you’ll start to love me as soon as I tell you I discovered how I look in someone else eyes. Do you really think you can do this now?

You’re saying you need me by your side, but babe, don’t lie, don’t forget that I know you well and I know you just want what you cannot have.

Sorry I cannot say your pain is my pain now, he is here now and he is making me smile. I don’t want to see how you burn… go away, and to be honest, I like the way it hurts you every time you breathe.

Remember the day you stabbed me? I was just passing by and I saw you; I saw you in another girl arms and at night you wanted to get into my bed like nothing happened. Until that day I let you hurt me, that day I realized you didn’t love me and I left.

You will go through your life like a lost soul, and when you try to get back to my path, you will be surprise when you find out that there will be no reward, you are not worthy of me and you will find I’m more unreachable for men like you.

I am no longer that silly girl you can control, your lies doesn’t work anymore, my love passed away, and I decided to walk away.

It was only a matter of time

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You’re like those high fevers that only attack at night and did not go down with the warmest of the baths, I’m starting to convulse.

Do you realize how you make me sweat? I’m dehydrated. Come here and stop this, It’s began to consume me, you’re burning me. Come a little closer, I promise I will not to hurt you.

I have come and gone down to this road many times, you cannot imagine how many, I already lost the count. 

I’m used to saying goodbye …

What I am feeling for you? … I do not know, but, why you want to know that? There is nothing you can do. I cannot define my feelings for someone who shares with another person what makes me dream.

I’m standing beside you because I want you to keep making me happy … you elevate my endorphins so high that when you leave, I have to look for that little blue pill to bring me back to reality without remembering what happened.

I stopped looking and came unbidden…

The last time I heard my beating was so long that I no longer feel his scent on my skin. You are giving my skin a new color, not even my own same type of blood could get me so high.

You should had arrived before our differences were others.

I do not want to feel what doesn’t have continue. I like how you erase memories that no longer need to maintain.

I can feel your heartbeat when your skin touch mine, you always feel so hot between my legs, between those white sheets that appear to have memories of previous nights.

Your hands on my hips invite me to the most unearthly passions.

Something blue…

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I’m the kind of good girl who is always dragged to the most darkness places.

You have blue eyes with greenish lode that made company to your nervous smile every time you saw me… you are drawing infinite pleasures on me.

You look irresistible on my lips tonight.

I cannot see better this morning, I have been there before, maybe is my desire of future making me blind when you are close. I do not see black clouds on my side but you are blowing then away.

I see you, I feel you, you are getting closer to where no one has been in a long time, and you are affecting my breathing.

You have an irresistible scent today… are you trying to seduce me? Because It’s working.

All the things you do to catch my attention, are spectacular. I never felt so special; I’m like a Queen when you are around… Is that your intention? What are you looking for?

Do you remember how we kissed that night we agreed to not talk about it? This cold winter starts to feeling warm… and we were just enjoyed our lips.

I’m looking your eyes right now, and I have to smile mischievously and say “I do not know what you’re talking about.” I blush and I starting to bite my lip.

I’m not capable to resist you anymore.

Are you sure age is just a number? My experiences are warning me to be careful.

Your taste starting to make me lose control, you are like a drug, my personal brand. Can I keep you? You are addictive.

I want a new story. Do you want to be the end of all my endings?

I want more than this moment; I want to wake up every morning without memories and thoughts from the past that follows me closely. He doesn’t want to let me go, could you cut the red yarn that attached me to him?

I’m confused who I will spend my forever with.